Unit Camp!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Unit camp soon!
GONNA BE...
I dun wan to say..
scared ltr the opposite reaction churned up.
but I'm SUPER EXCITED.
i dunno what to say.
I VERY EXCITED.
but my SENIOR really very BLURRR SOTONG.
VERY HARD to explain things to him.
but nvm.
Cuz I'm still looking forward to the camp.
even though its only 2d1n.
and we have to fall in straight after Sports Fiesta.
=.=
NVM!
I still look forward to it! :D
I'm feeling lethargic and fatigued today.
Got no mood to do hw.
Yesterday night.
at around 1.30am
I wasn't feeling well.
Woke up. Realised I was having stomach ache.
IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
then went to toilet..
then had a cup of water.
I tried to go back to sleep...
but then I vomitted.
a lot.
like 1 whole plastic bag.
argh
and now Im feeling fatigued.
NVM I shall do my best to complete hw. =___=
like real.
hahs. I found interesting things on FB.
and I don't know how to respond.
So I'll prolly pretend nothing happened.
so yeah.
bye.
Pissed off again.
Why can't we for once be more like them?
I mean like.. be more functional and like a well-oiled machine???
Most of the people who came down today are passionate about NPCC.
I have to say that they have a sense of responsibility.
I don't blame all those who didn't turn up either.
I know that some of them were overseas at Cambodia or Vietnam.
and some of you have something on.
So ok..
But those who PURPOSELY missed this meeting, I really don't know what to say anymore...
I really don't think that I should be angry with the bunch of you because honestly, I'm just wasting my time and breath.
So fine. This is your attitude towards NPCC?
I shall not spend any ounce of effort on you anymore.
I'm really confused right now..
Do you think I've changed?
Am I bossy?
I just don't know what to think of myself anymore..
and another thing...
I really don't want to shift the blame on anyone..
but seriously why?
Why are all the instructions given so confusing and muddled up???
In the end, the sec 3s will get the scolding.
because of what happened today.
I really don't know what I was thinking.
Therefore I will suppress my feelings from now on.so why?
The task was given to us.
Just because we have a bit of a reaction lag, u give the job to the seniors..
and u never tell us...
You don't trust the sec 3s.
How the hell are we supposed to take over the unit if u don't place your trust in us?
So our inputs are not valued.
ok. Whatever.
and seniors.
What is with the sudden change in attitude?
Just because u're sec 4...
u treat us like this.
I really really wish I'm not posting this on my blog now.
but it cant be helped la.
seriously...
can u choose your words carefully and keep us within the circle?
We're taking over soon.
and u're not preparing us for anything
are u trying to make us take everything for granted?
So seriously..
I'm gonna put this in caps just in case people cannot see.
LEAVE THAT ATTITUDE SOMEWHERE ELSE BEFORE YOU TALK TO ME
OR ANY OF THE SEC 3S FOR THAT MATTER.
If anyone from NPCC sees this...
feel free to confront me about it.
If u want to single me out, fine.
Rather 1 person than the whole squad.
I'm not trying to act pro.
But just because of this post u blame the whole squad.
NO.
Embarrass me, single me out, use vulgarities.
Whatever.
Just don't scold the whole squad.
I know I shouldn't be feeling this way.
but I'm human!
For goodness sake!
How many times must I repeat myself?
I'm HUMAN!!!
Have u ever considered what a difficult situation u put me in?
I seriously have no proper adjective to describe today.
It was slack. SUPER DUPER SLACK.
I shall not use exclamation marks in this post. Cuz that would make it look not serious.
I'm damn pissed off. SUPER DUPER PISSED OFF.
I won't mention this group of people I'm addressing.
I hope it'll be SUBTLE enough.
And I hope that you don't think I think I'm the best among all of you.
I just posted this, becuz there was a need to.
Why do you think I was put on Earth. If you think the answer was to serve you, then you're wrong.
Cuz its 100% false.
When you were sec 1 you chose what u wanted.
You have it now.
So why are you giving INVALID AND STUPID EXCUSES to explain why you're not committed?
WAKE UP YOUR IDEA.
You had a choice.
You chose it.
You got it.
What more do you want?
Right now, you think that I'm doing my best.
For the sake of everyone, I am doing my best.
but what did u do?
You climbed on my head.
Took advantage of me.
What am I to you?
Just because I do my very very best, don't think that you don't have to do anything.
BULLSHIT.
Fine I admit. I did my best.
I looked DESPERATE.
At least I had a sense of responsibility.
So if you have the guts to step up, be my guest.
Cuz honestly, if you're not gonna appreciate what I've done,
I shouldn't bother doing anything right?
STOP TAKING ME FOR GRANTED.
I'm only human. I have limited patience.
So if you continue to ignore me, I'll just ignore you.
an eye for an eye.
You want to push all the responsibilities to me right?
FORGET IT.
Cuz I'm not going to do it if all of you are nonchalant.
I won't step up if no one wants me to.
Yes. I've changed.
You've made me this way.
