TODAY WAS PROMOTION DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And you know what I feel like???
It doesn't feel like hooray!
I'm a Coporal!
its more of a...
KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm A LANCE COPORAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but after the ceremony...
we got...
Lectures!!!!!!!
no excitement...
but the nice thing is after the whole assignment is done...
we can get our badges!!!
hohoho!
and another thing I want to say is that...
I asked for permission to take out our bags again...
and I DON'T LIKE IT!!!
UGH!
It's like super embarrassing when everyone is staring at you...
and all the seniors inside were like...
*stare*
IT MAKES MY SKIN CRAWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha
ok enough of that..
Hmm... I think..
that today's training was unfair..
cuz the Sec 4s had the CIs all for themselves!!
xDDD
ok lurh..
I dunno why..
but I suddenly want to be more friendly with the CIs...
2moro got campcraft trg..
Hope Amirah is gonna be there...
Today, I forgot to bring my tie..
and I had to stand at the back...
den the Head Prefect recorded my name..
And I just noticed how she was...
She treated me like some kind of lowlife...
She thinks lowly of me...
and I just thought if I would be like that when I became a CL.
Eventhough I haven't experienced leading such a big group before...
I think it's a harder job than I had ever imagined...
To balance everything out...
To maintain discipline
and at the same time, be humble.
To give out orders effectively,
and yet, not sound demanding.
To give praises
but not until the point where they become over-confident
It's easy to be a stereotype..
but to be an effective leader...
That's a whole other different thing...
This time.. The pattern is gonna change..
Instead of me posting about something happy...
I shall vent out my anger again...
and guess what?
It's on the same topic as the previous posts...
Sure, some of us have feedbacked to Ms Chen..
I KNEW THAT THIS WAS BOUND TO HAPPEN!
Ms Chen said that she wasn't petty...
LIES...
Everything that happened today...
Everything was fake...
I knew something was wrong...
and I just didn't believe that this miracle would happen..
I believed my instincts...
right until she praised us...
I was so caught on actually thinking that our relationship with her was progressing...
but I didn't know that she was forced to say those words..
Her facial expressions gave her away...
so we're in a difficult position...
I don't know if we should have a talk with her..
or just leave the problem...
and look at how many people she brainwashed...
now we have no one to look up to...
Therefore,
I learned that we cannot regain trust easily..
and that there are some things in life that have to be ignored..
no matter how hard it is..
Now, with no one to look up to,
We'll set the pace...
Today is the last day I wake up as a cadet.
For I am now a Cadet Leader.
hmm... okay..
I know that most of the time I come here...
I post about something not nice...
and then try to make it happier the next time...
so let's start with something unpleasant..
NPCC!
I think that some people are being biased..
and they abuse their power to get even with us...
I don't want to name who..
But I think it's pretty clear who I'm talking about..
I also think that some people have changed...
Why is everything so easy when we were younger?
Why did they change?
Now I have witnessed how power changes people
and their treating us like... strangers..
I mean..
Isn't the duty of a senior to make their juniors feel welcome
make them feel like their wanted or something like that???
and obviously if you think negatively about us
we lose hope
the outcome is obviously negative too!
and they talk as if their so perfect...
fuck la!
I've seen and heard you drag your feet...
you're tired?
were you the one who stands in sedia all day?
you think that we have no sense of urgency
the fuck is wrong with you?
Still can WALK in front of so many Sec 1s
When you see us run, then you run?
STOP ACTING SUPERIOR
"It's too late to help you now."
Then is it too late to become Cadet Leaders?
"I'm not gonna bother myself with you guys now."
Then why are you still here?
Why are you still scolding us?
Only say things that you mean...
Cuz seriously... It's just making us hate you more
and you're just rubbing salt into wounds
When was the last time you smiled at us?
When was the last time you praised us when we did something good?
Take pride in your pain for you are stronger than those who have none. - Lois Lowry
The CIs don't think that we can we Cadet Leaders.
But they're wrong.
I believe in the 14th Batch of Cadet Leaders.
and the unit will not fall if we all have faith in ourselves.
First day of School!!!
was okayyyyyyyyyy...
I have mixed feelings now...
and I don't really know what I should be doing now...
and guess what?
There's NPCC training 2moro...
and 2moro is the 2nd day of school...
Isn't that...
-___________-
but I guess its okay...
NPCC marhs!
syoik rite?
:D
