Rain Dance!

And again..
this blog is the only place where I can truly just be myself.

I'm just being too sensitive..
right?

The group of you, out of all friends, would have thought about me too right?
Did I come across your mind?

If I didn't...
That would reflect on how bad a friend I might have been.

I guess I feel out of the circle..
Like as if I'm a stranger to you..

Did I do something wrong?
Was I being too informal to the point that I became rude..
and..
upset or angered you?

Aishah.. Aishah...
Damn. Why do I keep hurting the people I care about the most?

I'm at such a loss at what to do now...
and out of all people..
I gave you the cold treatment..

I'M SORRY!

God! Why am I so rash?

Sometimes I think people like me don't deserve to be alive..

OH DAMN IT!
I JUST WANT TO SHOUT MY FEELINGS OUT!

no.. sleep..
that's what I need..

posted by Siti Nur Aishah @ 11:47:00 PM 0 Comments

...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NOSEBLEED!
I'm being serious here!

I got nosebleed..
when I saw DooJoon's twitter acc!

AAHAHAHA!
I CRACK MYSELF UP!

AHAHAHAHAHAHA!

I stopped using twitter for a while...
STOP THE NOSEBLEED PLEASE!
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

XDDD

Sigh...
I can really amaze myself at how fast my moods can change.

At one point.. I'm feeling so high..
and now I feel angry?
sad?
disappointed?

Hurt actually..

I kept quiet at first..
But I found out that the whole lot of you went without me..

So..
If that's how much I mean to you...
then okay..

Fuck these moodswings...
Really!
IT'S AFTER THE EXAMS!
LET ME BE HAPPY WOULD YOU??????????

I might as well throw my social life away.
Study.
NPCC.
That's all.

Okay.. Maybe I couldn't have gone with all of you..
But no one asked..
at all..

Maybe I'm being too sensitive.

Right..
I'm going to bed.

posted by Siti Nur Aishah @ 7:37:00 AM 0 Comments

post exam?

Exams are over!

I feel the same..
haha

miserable miserable miserable.

A group that got me into my fangirl mode that I kept dormant for so long...
Until now..

Introducing Beast!!!
SOOM!




YO SEOB!



heh heh..

I'm totally posting vids like nobody's business. :P

I DON'T WANT TO GO STC!!!!!!
People are naturally scared and uncomfortable when they're put into a new environment.

And meeting the whole Area 20 for the first time...
*shy shy*
GAH. NOOOOOOOOOOO!

I'm still not used to being OIC ._.
It's like I want to take charge..
but I feel shy...
and when I don't feel shy...
People say I become bossy.

AHHHHHHHH!
What do you want me to do?
I can't help you if you don't want to help yourself.

Stop talking behind my back.
It's disgusting.
Just shoot.

I can accept critism very well.
Unless you purposely want to spite me...
I'm going to make life hellish for you.

WAH. NOW THAT I THINK ABOUT IT..
I BECOME DAMN PISSED OFF.

"OIC useless.."
=.=
I'd like to see you try and take my role.

If you think NPCC is such a slack CCA.

Then BLOODY HELL go and quit.


I don't give a damn about having a huge number of cadets in NPCC.
I don't give a damn about UOPA points.

Go on. Continue what you're doing.
See if I give a bloody rat's ass about it.

posted by Siti Nur Aishah @ 1:57:00 AM 0 Comments