OMG. Mdm Hayati rocks! hahaha. She got food outside staffroom during the break b4 p2 starts. HAHAHA. She asked me if I wanted. OFC LA. hahaha free food, yo! Who doesn't what?
and yeah. A lot of things happened today. I feel like burying my face.
ahhhhhhhhh. I dunno what to elaborate on. BUT IT WAS REALLY REALLY NICE!
ESPECIALLY THE MARCH IN!!!
OMG! And that time. It was windy. So the flags were really flying. wheee.
Kranji NPAP '10 people. You guys are DAMN CUTE. When I saw the Kranji Flag after the parade was over, I was waving to you guys like mad. Then when you guys saw us among the spectators, you started to SCREAM and RUN towards us with OPEN ARMS.
HAHAHA! THAT WAS DAMN FUNNY!!!
HAH! I shall upload pictures and videos another time. that is... IF they are of good quality.
I regret taking geog. The teachers are like... wtf?
This is not a complaint. I'm just expressing my feelings. Get it straight that I am NOT COMPLAINING. I already made up my mind not to complain about anything.
:O CAMPCRAFT THIS FRIDAY!!! but the sec 3s have promo test! OMG! WHY WHY WHY? I WANT TO JOIN CAMPCRAFT~ IT'S DAMN DAMN DAMN FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!
but nvm. I shall concentrate on my Promotion test first. Method of instruction! MOI MOI MOI! GAMBATTE!!!!!!!!
I'm happy to say that I've ALMOST snapped out of the trance I was in, two previous posts ago.
ok.. I'm sort of happy when I thought of this idea. Here's how the story goes.
I wanted to go for a First Aid course during the June Holidays. So I decided to surf the web for some courses. I went to the Singapore Red Cross Society website.
I WANT TO ATTEND THE STANDARD FIRST AID COURSE. LIKE SERIOUSLY!
I've got a passion for first aid, you know? ok. So I want to go for that course. I already told my parents. They looked willing to let me go. but the problem is...
I DON'T WANT TO GO ALONE. That will be weird. being the only teenager there. and the rest are adults! o.o
So I thought of this idea! Why not the Sec 3 squad go together? hahaha. so here's another problem. some of them seem uninterested in this idea. X_X
ahhh. If we go as a big group, we might get a discount for the course fee? and it would me much less awkward for me to go there. cuz I got friends! and if we pass the test, all of us can get the first aid badge!!! HOW COOL WOULD THAT SOUND???
It's killing 2 birds with 1 stone!!! MY PASSION FOR FIRST AID AND NPCC!!! but... that is.. if my TO accepts the idea...
If not I'll just have to go alone. TT.TT but I'll just put up the course details here if anyone is interested to go with me.
Course: Standard First Aid Course Date: Preferably 31May-2June 2010 Time: 9am-6pm (8 hours) Fee: $107 per trainee (+$35 for optional First Aid Manual)
At the end of the course, trainee will be a certified first-aider, equipped with skills to render first aid in times of urgency. Topics covered include tending to wounds, fractures, burns, individuals who suffered heart attacks and others.
I know the fee is like WOW! but if you're interested. Please do let me know.
My previous blog post was... ....................................................... really emo. Right? It's been such a long time since I was this sad. Maybe I'm just being overly sensitive. so forget about me.
I'm trying to look on the positive side. but it doesn't change the fact that I was disappointed with my own performance yesterday.
AISHAH WAS AN EPIC FAILURE DURING THE SERGEANT PROMOTION TEST TODAY.
Freak! I feel so useless! I did all sorts of horrible horrible things this week. Allow me to elaborate.
First. I've been really really really... egoistical. U know? Like act pro. In a bad way. It's probably because I'm getting all this power get to my head. because I'm already Sec 3. Already considered a senior. I was over-confident during the promotion test. And I have a strong feeling that I failed it. I've been very very egoistical. There's no doubt about that. Someone please knock some sense in my head.
Second. I've been a real bitch lately. I'm sorry for the language but due to the lack of suitable words, that will have to do. Someone in class... actually a lot of people in class. Are not talking to me. and try not to reply me. I'm not a very sociable person. and I'm irritating. So I'm sorry. really really sorry.
Third. Complaining too much. Really. I'm really disappointed with myself. because of this. really really frustrating. complaining too much about NPCC. I feel like such a spoilt brat. And I have to stop complaining right NOW. I shall hang on. No matter how hard it is.
Fourth. Disrespecting the seniors. I found out the person at fault was me. Not the seniors. I've been asking too much from them. I sort of outwardly contradict what that they want. and I roll my eyes a lot when they say something I don't like. I realise now that the relationship between a senior and junior must be just that. and nothing more. Even being friends, will be risky. So I'll just leave it at that.
And if anyone from NPCC somehow manages to see this post (especially the seniors), then I'd just like to say... I'm sorry. Sincerely sorry.
I just wanted to be equal. but I realise now that it's impossible.
another thing is that. Mdm is showing signs of not favouring me. Is it because I do too much and don't give others the opportunity? Well, I'm sorry for that. We ARE under probation after all. From now on, I'll just try to lay low and unnoticed.
Compared to the seniors I'm nothing. Nothing. My leadership skills are nothing to brag about either. Sometimes I ask myself, what the heck I've been doing for the 2 years I've been in NPCC.
Fuck! Why am I crying?
So I'll stop throwing complaints. I'll stop this bitchy attitude. I'll stop bragging. I stop everything. Even my true feelings for you.
I have very little confidence of passing the Sergeant Promotion Test.
My morale is at an all-time low.
I have absolutely NO confidence in taking over the Unit or squad for that matter.
Baked macaroni and CHEESE!!! The roux sauce was very nice!!! :DDD and got chese more!!! If add capsicums and pepper will be nicer! and more meat! and and the prego sauce!
OMG! WILL BE DAMN NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Today! Slacked in class and canteen. DM chased out ppl from the class.. ok not excactly chase... but u get the idea. sort of did homework at the canteen with Atikah, Philene and Yentl. and then went home. :DD
I shall end this post on a serious note. I know it was really last minute to have informal training on Thursday. But seriously, if u purposely want to ponteng, I really don't know what to say anymore. no offense, but that is really sickening of you.
and you, bitch! You'd better treat me with more respect. Get rid of that bitchy attitude. For the sake of the squad.
I want to be the nice person to help people with their drills. but seriously NPCC means nothing to you, you can FAIL the Sergeant Promotion Test for all I care. I'm not trying to say that I'm the best and all that. but really, what kind of attitude is this?
What is PROMOTION DAY? Is PROMO DAY=PROMO TEST? WTF? ON SUCH SHORT NOTICE???
Command list also haven't give! And the last 2 previous weeks should be used to revise right? OMG! SICKENING LA! Right after unit camp! Where got time to practice with seniors and CIs guidance???
At my grandma's house. and I got nothing to do. except do homework. but seriously... homework? during weekends?
I feel like changing my blogskin. but need to find a nice blogskin. sigh.
DAMN BORED!!!
and I'm deprived of NPCC. training was cancelled because it was Good Friday. Sometimes I wish that NPCC fell on both Wednesday and Friday. Wouldn't that be uber awesome?
You are always gonna be my love even if u fall in love with someone else. - First love by Utada Hikaru
Call me selfish. but for the past few weeks, I found it impossible to suppress my feelings.
erm... Unit camp finished... it was a long time ago. so I shall not bother to go into so much details.
Highlights of Camp!
BBQ! It rocks! but then.. my junior give me eat half-cooked chicken satay.. She wanted to give me. Then she dunno if cooked or not. then she ask a sec 4 if its cooked or not.. the the sec 4 say it's cooked.. I ATE IT! the next day I stomach ache!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! LE MIN! WHY ME OUT OF ALL SENIORS????? KELVIN! WHY ME OUT OF ALL JUNIORS?????
hmm... ok.. I super HEART my group and clan ok? They rock. My group is APOLLO! I realised that it's a very cool name... and I realised this after the camp ._. Clan name is Zeus! WOOHOO! erm.. not much to say here.. but my clanmates super rock also!
I think I was too harsh on them during the performance rehearsal. and I need to control my anger. I still don't have a high enough status to make them fear me. I want to maintain discipline. but I don't want to be enemies with them either.
so right now.. I have a puzzle to solve. How do you maintain discipline in the unit without being enemies with them?
Another event was the Amazing Race that the sec 3s planned. I would say it was... ok... Everything was so last minute... This is what happens when everyone decides to pon the meeting. =.= not only that. we planned this game for the sec 4s to join in with us.. but they used this time to prepare for their own water activities. sometimes I think that they treat us like their competition instead of their juniors.
then water activities... I seriously didn't feel like playing. I was in too bad a mood to enjoy myself. So I gave an excuse that I wasn't feeling well. and yeah.. after playing capture the flag, the clans had to do a cheer... I didn't play with them.. so I also didn't get to cheer with them... then I hear their cheer so soft.. ahhhhh. I wished I was there with them... My clan is nothing without me! MUAHAHAHAHA. ok sorry..
but Apollo was a good group! really good. :D
so yeah. unit camp. quite slack lurhs
You don't know my thoughts at all. Everytime you walk past, I just seem to subconsciously smile.
It's embarrassing so don't laugh. I'm just saying stupid things again.
